Ordinary People by John Legend

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow

This time we'll take it slow

I love this song. John Legend is incredibly talented and his lyrics speak so much truth.

My mom bought me a white gold cross pendant. I guiltily strung it onto a chain and have been wearing it ever since. Last night, I told her that I've been a phony and that I wear a cross pretending that I'm a good Christian living out her life pleasing to God.

She said something that got to me: "I don't wear the cross because I deserve it. I wear it because I want God's protection to surround me always." We don't deserve His love. I will always be a sinner saved by grace. The fact of the matter is, we are ordinary people. We have no idea what to do or how to navigate this psychotic, tortuous mess we call life. We screw it up all nice and nasty on our own. I had to remind myself last night to take it slow. To stop and realize that I don't deserve anything. I never did. I never will. But somehow, God has carried me through 21 years and He will continue to stay present no matter what.

God, please forgive me for falling short. For calling myself a "God-follower" and then recklessly placing myself in situations that You would never approve of. All I can say is I'm mortified and I'm hopelessly in need of your forgiveness each and every day! I'm only ordinary -- You are what gives me life.